Sometimes you have to live a wishful life if not to inspire others inhibitions to stay within the safe comfort zone that shalnt (should )be tested to break the weight much like a fishing line is graded…maybe that big one got away how would one know if a line was never cast. Maybe a cushy settlement was wasted chasing a purpose but I lived so much this year and one reason was he told me many years ago as if premonition I was to go first…so what the heck did I have to lose showing my children it’s ok to run after that darn dream….my roommate ex-spouse did it by the book…put himself thru college late in adulthood working jobs….earned multiple degrees so I know it would break his heart if our daughter did not go to college…until life insurance covers residence expenses while I work on working a normal gig for now(I’m not giving up my hockey game attendance seeking one arena that has my vibe to pursue bipartisan belief. It may just mean these buggers homebodies might need to come along sometimes if I may continue before the near 18 and 14 year old reach official adulting…