I wasn't afraid to give back to my ex with his own funds from settlement. He had my back I had his but my heart is just a trickly thing,,,,I'm a survivor of a bit more extreme then usual domestic abuse think like a past spouse killed my pets to keep me in line…a man any man can never show a temper no matter the circumstance. Never again do I love if it shows possibility to hurt at all and so we failed to get past bumps…anyway. Maybe not for gushy stuff it was meant but he and I had the children and that might be what fate was to be-the two of us to create a family not fairy tale ending and that's alright. Right now transporting yahoos being here consistently and making great meals not venturing much working out there (for now) is good enough. I started a new art studio a few days ago that will be blending my passion of a sport…creating multi media art based on sports jerseys or others items. Fans pay buttloads for sweaty jerseys why not artistic ones. I believe it's not truly work if it's something you're passionate about. Do what you love and love what you do…once the estate is settled helping our 18 year old child finish the necessary probate process…downsize how many properties we own consolidating expenses surviving much easier on less and organize his things to rest neatly peacefully and then do the same for my end of life matters easing burden my kids could've had kick ass books and Art to get to. Yes I do.

Before he died I had written it down as an idea…. But now it has a name. The Newer Jersey Girl Art Studio….pun. new type of jersey and I'm a girl just not from New Jersey.😃